The Wake Of My Recovery
by Jayzee
When you came into my life,you breathed a new passion into my soul.You gave me a reason to faceand conquer each day with purpose, confidence.You excited my heart and my need to love-and I did love . . . you.My world grew bright with all that was youand my everything became you.But with no warning or backward glanceyou blackened my existence with your retreat-Into another's arms.I felt I couldn't breathe without you.You left me with no defense. No understanding.Left to stumble and learn to live my lifealone, without your passion and "love. "Time crawled when helping me to mendmy shattered soul.Every step I made toward recovery filledme with hate and distrust.Bitterness.Gone was the hope and faith. Replacedhollowly by fear and rage.In the wake of my recovery I left manybroken hearts. As you left mine.After many horrid mistakes I slowly came torealize what I should have known before.The passion we shared, the love we had-wasn't because of you.It was because of me.When with you, I wasn't myself.And I fell.With my new realization I began a truerecovery- discovery of the beauty within me.Much time later I can smile at our good timesand leave the pain felt behind me.I have blossomed into myself. I'm surroundedby those that truly love me.Now that you see my newfound independenceand security, you want me again.Suddenly you see that all you've ever hopedand wished for is within me.But with the pain you caused, you taughtme something else.Self-worth.I love myself.And you don't deserve me.Goodbye.